As I sit here typing this, there is a box of chocolate-covered pretzels, a box of See's candies, a box of Almond Roca, half a bag of Hershey's chocolate, and a container of fresh-baked Costco cookies sitting right next to the computer.
My mouth is watering thinking about all this fatty goodness in my house right now.
But I'm being good, I swear. It's tempting, but I'm resisting.
I, like everybody else, desperately need to lose some weight this year. After three kids? It's time.
I never bothered dieting after Cinderella, because I knew I wasn't done having kids, so what was the point?
I eventually lost most of the weight naturally, but then I got pregnant again 2 years later, and again 9 months after Sleeping Beauty's birth.
Basically, I have two pregnancies worth of baby weight to lose.
It's time to get rid of it.
I have never dieted before, and I have never had to exercise before. I've usually been active enough to keep healthy, but with two kids, then three, I don't do much of anything.
We bought a Wii Fit for Christmas, and I've been using that regularly. It's not much, but it's a start. At least I can track my BMI changes and my weight loss with it.
I have a Pilate's DVD and body ball that I'll use eventually, but I think I need to gradually work up to them. Finding time without the girls around is almost impossible; they insist on joining me when I work out, and there just isn't room for all of us in the living room. There's nap time, but I'm currently using that time to finish up school work for this term.
I think I'll just stick to the Wii Fit for now. Lose weight first; tone body second.
What's really helping me lose the weight is watching my eating habits. I've stopped snacking in between meals, unless it's a piece of fruit. I do have a treat after lunch (usually licorice) to calm the sweets craving, but then that's it. I have no dessert Monday through Thursday. I indulge on the weekend, but way more moderately than before. I also don't eat anything past 8:00 pm during the week, 9:00 pm on the weekends.
It's been tough, but so far I've stuck to this new regimen for two weeks now.
I used to be one of those people who could eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, and not gain an ounce.
Actually, I probably still am mostly that way. I just need to get down to my ideal weight first. After that, I won't gain weight very easily, and when I do, it'll just seem to magically melt away in a day or two.
At least, that's the way it used to be. I'm hoping it won't have changed too much in the almost-six years since I first got pregnant.
I'm sure it has though. *sigh*
I have virtually no will-power when it comes to food. I've never needed it before. All these snacky treats in the house right now? I didn't buy them. I never would have bought them. They were very generously given to us by my in-laws. I really appreciate their generosity. I really, honestly do. And I will eat my share of what they brought. Just slowly, methodically, and cautiously this time. With lots of will-power that I will find somewhere.
I have to find it.
And I will lose the weight. Despite the temptations.